I feel so sad. I feel like everyone hates me. Everyone makes mistakes, but I feel like when I do one thing wrong the whole entire world has to turn against me. My stomach is in so much pain. I can’t stop crying and puking. Nothing feels right anymore.  Fuck this. Fuck feelings. Fuck people. fuck fuck fuck.

After 5 fucking years, I’m starting to get healthy again.

wow. I’m single… :/

“Gymnastics tells you no. All day long. It mocks you over and over again. Telling you you’re an idiot. That you’re crazy. If you like running full-speed towards a stationary object, vault’s for you. If you like pealing pieces of skin the size of quarters of your hands… bars is for you. Because the only thing more fun then rips, is when your rips get rips. It’s super sexy. And floor, are you serious, I mean who doesn’t want to parade around in a leotard getting wedgies and doing dorky choreography? It’s delicious. If you like falling, then gymnastics is thee sport for you! You get to fall on your face, your ass, your back, your knees, and your pride! It’s a good thing I didn’t like falling… I LOVED IT! “